Friday, December 12, 2008

You Follow Me!



Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus.  But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, "Lord, save me!" (Matthew 14:29-30) 

So Peter seeing him said to Jesus, "Lord, and what about this man?"  Jesus said to him, "If I want him to remain until I come, what is that to you?  You follow Me!" (John 21:21-22)


Lately, it's been easy for me to get distracted and begin to look at the lives of those around me and compare myself to them.  I can become jealous of the way God seems to be allowing others to live, and the blessings He has given others that He hasn't given me.  I can feel frustrated when I see people in my life going in a direction I also want to go, and yet it seems like God is saying, "No, Lisa," "Not yet, Lisa," or, "Not you, Lisa."  These are feelings you deal with when friends around you have husbands, houses, steady jobs, dogs and babies; and you live in a basement, work as a nanny, and don't even own your own silverware.  Sometimes it really doesn't seem fair!  

When I look at others and say to Jesus, "What about that girl?  Why doesn't my life look like that?" I become insecure, fearful, angry and impatient.  When I, like Peter, take my eyes off Jesus and begin to look at what's going on around me, I start to lose faith and doubt God's goodness.  My wandering eyes cause me to question God, and to try to take control to make my life look like the lives of those around me. Which, unsurprisingly, usually only results in disappointment and disaster.  Jesus' response to me, when I begin to compare myself to others is, "What is that to you?  You follow Me!"

Today I am reminded that my life is not my own to do with what I please.  My life is in Jesus' hands, and I need to lock my eyes on His and follow.  I have my own path, no one else's.  I'm remembering that discipleship is about surrendering and submitting my will to God's will.  I sang the song today: "Lord, you have my heart and I will search for Yours.  Let me be to You a sacrifice."

And when I stop looking around me, stop asking the "What about this man?" questions, and start fixing my eyes on Jesus, I remember that my life is indeed rich.  That I have never lacked adventure, fun, or purpose.  And that God has always been good to me.  I remember that He has always been and always will be trustworthy.  His path for me is mine, and won't look like anyone else's.  But I know when I follow, that's when I will really live.

The lines have fallen to me in pleasant places; indeed, my heritage is beautiful to me (Psalm 16:6).     


Wednesday, December 10, 2008

It is FINISHED! :-)

This morning I took my final in Theories of Conflict, Violence, and War, and now that it's done, I can officially say I have completed my first semester of grad school!  It's hard to believe that after just four months, I can say I'm 1/4 of the way to my degree!

In some ways, it's hard to believe the semester is over.  It did seem to fly by, but mostly because it was so jam packed!  There were a few brief moments of reprieve between big groups of assignments, but for the most part, the semester was intense and non-stop.  The assignments and readings kept on comin' one right after the other.  I remember one week I had three papers, one midterm, and a presentation all in 7 days!  

I can say I am extremely satisfied with how hard I worked, and looking back, I'm impressed with how much I learned and grew in the last four months.  There were brief periods of doubt at the beginning, but I finish the semester even more convinced that this school, this program, is exactly where I need to be.

My favorite class was probably Theories of Conflict, Violence and War (TCVW).  Most grad students will tell you that when push comes to shove with assignments, reading tends to be the first thing to go; but not with this class.  I loved our in-class discussions about International Relations theories, concepts and explanations of violence, and the way war is changing.  TCVW challenged me to think, process and come to my own conclusions on these complex issues, and I am most proud of the papers I wrote for this class.

Quantitative Analysis, as you all know, was NOT my favorite class, but I am still extremely proud of the work I did.  Not ever having taken statistics, the class had a huge learning curve for me.  But I worked hard to learn, understand, and master the concepts, and my hard work paid off.  By far I am no statistics pro, but compared to what I knew at the beginning of the semester, I can say confidently I have come quite a long way.

Peace Paradigms was probably the class that most significantly impacted the direction I want to take in my studies and beyond.  Providing a broad overview of different paths to peace, I found myself feeling confused and out of place during the first few weeks of readings about peace through strength and world order.  Then we entered the section on peace through conflict resolution and things began to click.  Something in me resonated deeply with our readings and discussions, and it was especially apparent in contrast with my ambivalence the first few weeks. I discovered the field of Interactive Conflict Resolution (ICR), which I knew almost immediately was exactly what I want to do.  Focused on addressing the roots of protracted conflicts, such as relationships and attitudes, ICR is an innovative and refreshing contrast to traditional mediation within the power politics model.  Incidentally (or not so incidentally), my Peace Paradigms professor (also the director of the whole International Peace & Conflict Resolution program) is one of the four main contributors to the field of ICR.  Yes, I am in the right place.

All in all, a great semester.  Demanding, of course, but I don't think I could have expected it to go any better!  I'm looking forward to the remainder of my studies, but first, some much needed rest and relaxation, and 2 weeks in Fresno for Christmas!  Yes, today is a HAPPY day! 

Saturday, December 06, 2008

War and Terrorism: Categories & Contradictions

For those of you who are interested, my last paper of the semester: A short reaction (though not a short blog post) to Talal Asad's book, On Suicide Bombing. 

In the United States, particularly since September 11, 2001, we are accustomed to the rhetoric associated with terrorism.  We know that terrorism—and the terrorist—is evil, irrational, and mean-spirited; yet, we can wage a ‘war’ on terror that does not evoke the same emotions, but instead represents courage, moral fortitude, and liberation.  Good and evil, light and dark, civilized and uncivilized, moral and immoral, legitimate and illegitimate, humane and inhumane—the simple use of the word ‘terrorism’, and we know immediately in which category the action belongs.  In his book On Suicide Bombing, Talal Asad challenges us to step back, drop the labels, and honestly examine what we call ‘war’ and ‘terrorism’ before categorizing them.  Upon doing so, we find that  “however much we try to distinguish between morally good and morally evil ways of killing, our attempts are beset with contradictions” (p. 2).  All our rationalized classifications seem woefully arbitrary.

The first way we denounce terrorism is by labeling it an illegitimate use of violence.  According to Max Weber, the state claims a monopoly on the legitimate use of physical force.[1]  States can wage war (within certain parameters) without incurring an international backlash.  But terrorists, as non-state actors, have no claim whatsoever to a legitimate use of violence.  Because they are not acting on behalf of a state or an army, their actions are automatically denounced.  Asad references Michael Walzer to describe this phenomenon: “What Walzer condemns in war is excess and in terrorism its essence.  States kill, too, of course, although they claim to kill only legitimately” (p. 16). This categorization of legitimate and illegitimate becomes problematic in the case of the Israel/Palestine conflict.  As Asad articulates, though both sides have grievances, Israel, as a state, is the only party who can legitimately use violence or wage war, while Palestinian violent actions are automatically classified as terrorism.  Caught in an infuriating Catch 22, Palestine, in its attempt to gain statehood, has no legitimate recourse for the use of violence because it is not a state.  “So war is a legally sanctioned concept, and the hateful killing perpetrated by unlicensed militants is not” (p. 25).     

But if violence is to be legitimized at all, why should the state have the monopoly?  Why is war not denounced as vehemently as terrorism?  Are states somehow more discerning, more moral, or more responsible with their power than non-state actors? Some would indeed say yes, but Asad acutely observes that “modern states are able to destroy and disrupt life more easily and on a much grander scale than ever before and… terrorists cannot reach this capability” (p. 4).  War has certainly been more destructive and taken more lives, military and civilian, than terrorism; yet, the idea of large-scale killing in war is much more amenable to us than the idea of suicide bombing.  Why is this so?  Is the categorization of one as legitimate and the other as illegitimate not fairly arbitrary?

Another distinction made between war and terrorism is that terrorism is brutal and inhumane, while war is conducted ‘humanely’.  War has rules; therefore, it is more palatable to us.  Asad quotes John Keegan stating that, “moral inhibitions… served to restrain deliberate barbarities of design” (p. 61) in war, but that our concept of reprehensible weapons has been eroding.  Guns, tanks and air raids are humane; landmines, cluster bombs, and nuclear weapons are questionable; chemical and biological weapons and suicide bombings are inhumane.  But how long will even these loose classifications hold?  If the line between humane and inhumane ways of killing is so fluid, how is it determined?  Who determines it?  And how is it we have come to accept any method of killing another human ‘morally good’?  Asad attributes this to “the ingenuity of liberal discourse in rendering inhuman acts humane” (p. 38).  If we take a step back and look at these ridiculous lines we have drawn, do they really make any sense, or are they full of contradictions?  A suicide bombing may indeed be inhumane, but is dropping a bomb from a military plane any more humane?

It is easier for us to accept war while denouncing terrorism when we categorize terrorists as ‘uncivilized’.  If terrorists are uncivilized, we do not need to understand them or consider that there may be logic behind their actions.  “Suicide bombing is terrorism and… as terrorism, it is an evil in need not of analysis and understanding but of moral condemnation and firm practical response” (Asad referencing Walzer, p. 22).  The civilized (Westerners), however, have a moral advantage in the performance of violence. “People at all times have, of course, justified the killing of so-called enemies and others they deem not deserving to live.  The only difference is that today liberals who engage in this justification think they are different because morally advanced” (p. 4).  The civilized may kill, but it is assumed their motives are more pure; they play by ‘the rules.’  And if you kill according to the rules (the rules you have established), the act of killing is less reprehensible.  Therefore, war becomes “a collectively organized, legitimized, and moralized game of destruction that is played much more savagely by the civilized than the uncivilized” (p. 53).  And no matter how savagely you play the game, you will never be as ‘savage’ as the uncivilized who do not play by the rules, or do not play your game at all.

Asad uses the military bombing of German and Japanese cities during World War Two as an example of moral advantage given to the civilized.  During these bombings, hundreds of thousands of civilians were killed and terrified.  Yet, this violence is generally categorized as neither illegitimate, inhumane, nor uncivilized.  Why?  Because the military commander’s, but not the terrorist’s, conscience is taken into account.  It is assumed the military commander was only doing what was necessary, which makes the bombings unfortunate, but not evil.  The terrorist’s conscience, on the other hand—no matter how clean it may be or how necessary he felt his actions were—is of “no significance in the categorization of his action” (p. 26). 

We also operate on the assumption that militaries do not target civilians as terrorists do.  However, Asad points out that the new doctrine of striving for zero military losses, coupled with the bombing of ‘dual-use’ targets such as electrical power plants, results in more enemy civilian deaths.  Civilians die en masse, but they are not technically targeted (even though undoubtedly, military commanders know their actions will result in these deaths); therefore, militaries and soldiers are absolved on the basis of motive.  “Motive becomes crucial to the distinction between collateral damage and war crimes” (p. 36).  Another important distinction is that civilians who die at the hands of terrorists are often Westerners, while civilians who die at the hands of Western armies are often the poor.  The sad fact of the matter is that in the West, we value the lives of the affluent more than the lives of the poor (p. 94), and are especially indignant when the civilized die at the hands of the uncivilized.

These dichotomous categorizations are carried through to the way captured terrorists are treated while detained.  Because they are uncivilized and their actions are illegitimate and inhumane, they become part of what Asad refers to as the “torturable class” (p. 33).  Torture, though denounced clearly by the Geneva Convention and human rights law, can be used against terrorists because they do not play by the rules.  International law applies to Prisoners of War (enemy combatants who play by our rules), but “since uncivilized opponents do not abide by international law, they cannot be protected by it” (p. 35). 

Certainly the horror evoked by terrorism generally, and suicide bombing specifically, is warranted.  What is disturbing is that “there is no general sense of horror… at the numerous atrocities committed or condoned by democratic governments” (p. 34).  We have framed war and terrorism as mutually exclusive, but evidence shows that our categorizations are full of contradictions.  Legitimate and illegitimate; humane and inhumane; civilized and uncivilized; torturable and nontorturable.  These classifications are, in the end, arbitrary social constructions.  Instead of thinking critically about all forms of violence perpetrated, we hear a word (‘terrorism’) and categorize automatically.  The great sorrow in this conditioning is not that terrorism as such is denounced, but that the legitimacy of war—with all its destruction, horrors, and atrocities—goes largely unquestioned in mainstream liberal discourse.  For peacemakers, countering this acceptance of war is a much greater challenge than ‘fighting’ terrorism.  In this respect, Talal Asad does a great service to the peacemaker community by challenging his readers to acknowledge the contradictions in their categories, and to move beyond labels toward a more holistic and honest view of violence in all forms.



[1] Weber, M. (2002). Politics as a Vocation. In C. Besteman (Ed.), Violence: A Reader (pp. 13-18). Washington Square, New York: New York University Press.

Wednesday, December 03, 2008

Power Point Woes

I am certainly not a Power Point pro.  In fact, I will admit that this was the first semester I ever did a Power Point presentation!  But I do remember a few things from that good ol' Oral Comm class we all had to take in undgrad, and based on the presentations I just witnessed in my Quant class, I'm starting to think that maybe no one else does.  You'd think grad students would be a little more adept at presentations!  So, a few tips from the Lisa J. Freeman School of Public Speaking...
  1. You don't need to look at the screen.  I PROMISE, if it's on the computer in front of you, it's on the big screen, too, hon.  If you are staring at the screen with your back to the audience, that's a good sign your presentation isn't going so well.
  2. Please don't use font 12.  Or 14.  Or anything smaller than 18, for that matter.  If your slide is packed full of font 12 writing, I am going to immediately shut down and not even attempt to read it.  The point of a visual aid is to AID your presentation,  and if I can't read it, it's not helping me.
  3. Don't read me what's on your slides word for word.  Seriously, if that's all you're going to do, print it and give me a handout.  I can read.  This is a PRESENTATION, meaning YOU are supposed to be an important part.
Just a few of my presentation pet-peeves... you know I can be critical with the best of 'em!  :-)